and y'know what she does when i'm like sitting my hand in me pants and some naked lady on the screen? she fucking moves forvsrd in my room. this shit just got my crying.
like thanks for ruining even something simple like this, i fucking hate you all.
oh man really why in the world they all fucking have to open the door without even knoking or asking if they can.
shame, helpless tears, mental breakdowns, i never realized i was so emotionally vulnerable. i fucking decorate all the apartment with christmas lights, bring in that good ol' mood
and that's what i get. don't even know why it all feels so sad. i wanted to go complain about it with mom but uh
i just want some comfort and privacy in my fucking life and scandal won't do it for sure.
and you know what? i got 0 working days this week. 0. bc lera has all the same free days. and they're like oh okay we wait you another guyTM for monday. and didn't tell anything else.
wow thanks guys. wow thanks mom.
marry fucking christmas ya'll ama go just kill myself after secret santa is finished or make more holes in my skin, to let all the embarassment out somehow.